I can remember when a Quality position that I really loved and was highly skilled in came to an abrupt end this year. Becoming successful involved working 12-hour days and constant planning to stay ahead; however, I didn’t mind, my clients were happy and I felt great. All was well until one of my clients requested that I check the statistics of relevant data that met Medicare criteria but was not reflected in the “Met” percentages. My research revealed the worst-case scenario. Although a team of three persons including myself was devoted to the process of reviewing the data, we did not have an Inter-Rater Reliability system in place to monitor the submission of the data. The team member assigned for the submission of said data had failed to comply with the mandated requirements.
As I reviewed and noted the 19th non-submission, I immediately notified the Manager and Client Liaison of the findings. The administrative decision of nondisclosure to the client prompted my decision of immediate resignation. I experienced many emotions during the two weeks that followed the end of my career. My tenure with the company that I envisioned leaving with the status of a retiree would never happen. I went through the stages of grief including shock and disbelief. The level of disappointment that I experienced was immeasurable. How could this have possibly happened after all of my hard work? As I share this experience, I can emphatically say that my decision to stand by my Christian ethical and moral values was one that I have never regretted.
In Jeremiah 29:11, God tells us, “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” At the time of my disappointment, I did not recognize that God had other plans for my life or the compromise that I made for my celebrated success. During my employment, my health was gradually failing Fifty and Fighting the Fast Food Epidemic , due to inappropriate food choices, a work-life balance that was nonexistent, and a diminishing relationship with God. There are no easy methods to overcoming disappointment. Often we are encouraged to move on as if nothing happened. Express your disappointment: “I am disappointed and sad that things did not work out as I anticipated.” However, acknowledging to God that although you do not understand his will for your life, you are still willing to put your life in His hands, and that simple act of faith initiates the healing process.
Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. And I will be found…Jeremiah 29: 12-14