But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, Jacob, and formed you, Israel: Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name: you are mine. Isaiah 43:1
Many years ago, I worked with a nurse who had been raised in an orphanage owned by a church. Unfortunately, the children were physically and emotionally abused daily by those entrusted to care for them. As she relayed the events of her childhood through the age of 18 when she aged out of the institution, she felt that her life would never have real meaning. A failed marriage without children compounded the situation and left her without hope for the future.
When she completed sharing the events of her life, Nurse N. took out her cellphone and asked, “Can I show you something?” As I looked through the pictures of many acrylic and watercolor paintings, I realized that she was a brilliant and talented artist. Being a lover of art, I was amazed at her innate level of talent. N’s story continued of how she discovered her talent by watching a televised series of an artist. One day she picked up a pencil and began to draw on a scrap piece of paper. And that was the beginning of a journey to express her painful past of emotional turmoil.
But there was something that did not add up, her paintings reflected beauty, hope, and an optimistic future. I remained silent as I handed the cellphone to Nurse N. “I know that my paintings do not reflect the terrible things that I experienced in life, but my work expresses the peace and happiness that I wish for, and I know that there has to be something more in life because I can see that it exists in people like you.” At that point, Nurse N. asked me to tell her about God.
God’s Divine intervention was evident that night because the Psych Unit was unusually quiet, and the patient’s slept throughout the shift. We experienced downtimes, to reflect on God, chat about our hobbies, and our future desires. I can remember that our conversation about God lasted for about three hours. Nurse N. had many questions regarding God, thankfully, I had my Bible and was able to use scriptures to validate the answers she was seeking.
My response to anyone that asks me about my personal experience with God will receive the same answer: “God is my Heavenly Father.” When I reflect on my life from the brokenness and many obstacles throughout six decades of life experience, I can say with conviction, “Only God.” Today, I testify of my transformation and complete healing from the devastation of past events that could have prevented the ability to love God, to love others, and to love myself. If I had little to no dependence on God, then the brutal events of life would have destroyed my ability to move forward. After 25 years of being single, God blessed me with my provider, and my soul-mate, the love of my life, and we are working toward 12 years of marriage.
There are no analytical or rational thought processes that can explain Nurse N’s request to learn about God. Although we worked together for many months, she was introverted, and her habits during downtime were to read paperback books and to eat individually wrapped candy. Nor can I provide a detailed explanation of the healing that I received from all past emotional turmoil, I still say, “Only God.”
“I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth, you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
The time when we are feeling our worst, and the impossibilities in life appear to be the path that we are destined to travel. Stop and pray, “God, I need your help.” This short prayer indicates that through faith, you acknowledge and accept that there is a loving, Heavenly Father that created you and will take care of all of your situations.
And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear. Isaiah 65:24
How is this possible? “Only God!”
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